03 August 2010
Falling down and getting back up again.
Miley Cyrus wrote a song about climbing some mountain , Sex in the city had Sara Jessica Parker fall on a runway and conquer it, Martha Stewart went to jail and came out on top...
It's our life.
Good or bad it's our life. I don't want to go numb because things feel bad. I want to be as present in the "bad" times as I am in the "good".
I am learning to ask for help and guidance in a healthy way.
I am learning the difference of asking for help or asking for what I want to hear, to feed my own emotional drama.
Help.
Trusting that you know what you need to do.
This summer has thrown me some curve balls that I never saw coming.
Thanks to some amazing mentors and some incredible loved ones, I found my self breathing and moving forward.
Moving forward and still keeping a good enough pace up to stay in the race.
New.
Change.
Trust.
Soo soo grateful.
09 July 2010
I looked up the word blessed... because i feel blessed but it feels like such a religious word... when i looked it up i found blissfully happy. and that is what i feel today.
i got to wake up, get to work with an incredibly sharp coach for an audition, take myself to breakfast and then audition in a room full of these really great toronto actors.
Now i get to read a script and learn lines for another audition... Today I feel blissfully happy.
Studying and getting the chance to apply what I learn. And all the while getting supported by the most generous friends, family and artists around me.
I can't say enough about today.
So i'm going to share this video to express my happiness.
SIDE BAR: check out www.bendussault.com for an amazing motivational funny and exciting blog.
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29 May 2010
This week has been an interesting week.
As I type this half of my face is swollen and bruised... yup I got my wisdom teeth out. All 4. And tomorrow I'm moving into a new apartment....
I was looking at my schedule for the next few months and wonder how it's all going to work out.
There's no point really ... to wonder... because it always does.
As one of my teachers said... somehow.. the rent always gets paid.
The next two months are going to be filled with classes with Michele Lonsdale-Smith. She's back! And she's sharper than ever.
She has this new layer to her, this new fresh life to her.
I can't say enough about studying.
Being in a room with people that are creating and being brave about it. People that struggle publicly to make the best art they can, the most truthful “balls-out” art they can.
Classes fill me up.
Wisdom. I wonder if I lost any with the teeth pulling. Or if I made room for more?
26 March 2010
The THIRD episode of "PURE PWNAGE" airs tonight at 10pm
Please tune in, it's our first season and we need your support!
And let me know what you think!!
XOXO!
17 March 2010
Tune in this Friday for episode 2!!!
On Showcase at 10pm!!
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10 March 2010
I learned a big lesson this past year.
I think it was a lesson in the making.. not one of those slap you in the face lessons.. it was more of a very slooooooooow climb up a very steeeeep hill sort of lessons.
I learnt that it takes a team. There isn't much you can do in this world alone. I'm sure people will want to fight me on this one.. I at times want to still fight me on this...
I really love to cook.. I also like to bake, especially when I'm dealing with anything stressful in my life. You'd be hard pressed to find a recipe that only has one ingredient.
I don't think there is any way possible I can have an acting career with one ingredient.
For some magical reason I found myself falling in love with a man a few years ago...and that man has taught me many things. He is one of the largest ingredients in my life to date.
I am supported and encouraged.
I am challenged and questioned.
I am taken care of and LOVED.
I am all of these things and yet I am still independent. I have not lost myself but gained an extra side to my heart.
I learnt how to compromise and let him carry my bags and open the door for me (once in a while I still fight this).
Last year I learned that I need to run lines with him and my friends before my auditions. I need to talk out loud about my choices and ideas so that I can own them in the audition room.
I have a team of people working with me towards my future.
A team that helps guide me and sparks creativity and tells me not to wear "that" shirt....
Athletes have coaches, companies have departments, doctors have nurses, and singers have bands.....
I learnt to let each person play a role in my life. I learned to say "I need help".
My amazing partner inspires me to be better. He's a personal trainer, a musician, a chef and amazing infectious person to be around.
I could go on, but I don't want to brag.... and I don't want to make you throw up in your mouth reading this.
Here's to future lessons.
